dislike this feeling...

Just another few more hours to go before departure.

So much dislike this feeling.
Feeling of physically far away.
Feeling of wonder when will be together again. The never ending wonders will keep on lingering in my mind...

How I wish this never happen to me.
How I wish this day never have to come.

Seems like another difficult bed time... Will try to... Hope both will be able to sleep well... It is important for someone.

I tell myself, to be strong.
I tell myself, distance doesn't matters.
I tell myself, we will be the same and stay in touch like we always did.

Pray for someone for safe journey and good health & life all the time...

tiny fur fur...

Ooo~~ pups growing real fast ya.

When they were just born, their skin is so redish pink.

But, As days go by, the redish pink started to fade and slowly replaced by dark patches which will be the design of their growing fur.

So cute to spot tiny furs covering their body now.

Their eyes are still shut with no sense of direction yet. So they uses their body and tiny weak legs, wiggle waggle around.

Am so amazed by the pups' behavior..... they started to behave like the grown up hamster; such as scratching and brushing their whiskes. So cute~

Besides that, they started wrestling too with their eyes still shut.... Cool~

Can't wait for their eyes to open and grow little more furs. Cause I can start to pet them and scoop them up in my hands :)

Their are even more cute when they started to run around.

Hope they'll grow even faster so that someone is able to play with them before leaving......

what should I be?

I like to learn and I like to offer my helping hands.

But everythime when I do so, people tend to let go their responsibility and in the end it become my responsibility.

How can this ever happened?

Not that I am an irresponsible person. Not that I don't like taking up responsiblities.

It is just so much unacceptable for a person to be irresponsible just because they had a helping hand.

Should I be an ignorant person?

Should I be a selfish person?

Should I be torns among the roses?

..... should I be ..... should I be ..... should I be .....

People are so meant or is it myself being naive?

almost near....

Wonder how often do I have to go through departing moments...

Really not easy but not sure if this is a must for every single person to go through in their life.

As clock keeps ticking, the day is drawing near.

As I look at the calendar, the day is just days away from now.

So so soon.....

I wish the day is still far away and yet to come but as long as the earth keeps spining...... the clock keeps ticking...... the day is nearer and nearer.

At once, I wish July ends faster to move on to August.

Now, how I wish August never started so that September is still far away...

This sounded so ironic...

:D surprised & grateful~

- "Rainbow Day" -

Start work as usual, another day to rush my work.... have to get things done, hopefully by today.

As I work, I heard some familiar ringtone. My phone rings. First thought, it is unsual to receive a call from this particular caller at this time.... wondering what happened??

OH~~

A surprised breakfast is on the way.....

So so so surprised that I thought I am dreaming. By looking at the time, it's almost for to clock in for work too, hopefully can make it on time.

Am so surprised & greatful~

Thank you for making up my day unexpectedly :)

rejected Pup :(

The very first thing I did when I woke up this morning was checking on Hammy and the pups.

What I fear most happened.....

Hammy ate the pup!

It should be the one which was seen being ignored by Hammy last night.

Hmmm...... am so dumbfounded by the scene leaving me so much in despair now :(

Hope Hammy is not do it again to the other pups.

So much wanted to keep an eye on Hammy ..... sigh......

Hammy is a Mum :)

Yesterday, I transferred Hammy to a new tank cos she keeps biting the cage bar. Furthermore, she's pregnant and I don't want the biting habits harmed herself & soon to be born pups.

I was wondering the whole morning & surfing around to gather some info on Winter White's pregnancy and I found that the gestation is around 14-16 days or to 21 days. Meaning to say, Hammy will give birth anytime soon. Probably by this week.

After having dinner, we rushed home to set up for Hammy's nesting.

The moment I see the tank where Hammy is, I saw many tiny movements in between the bedding. I am so excited that I quickly take a closer look to confirm what I have in mind.....

Yes, it is the day!

The pups!

Hammy gave birth to 6 little pups......

So glad that someone is able to see the birth of hamster :) just like what I wished for.

It seems like on of the pups being left out from feeding.... I have a feeling that this poor little pup is ebing rejected by Hammy.... Feel so... hmmm.... Hope everything is alright, nothing bad.... hope Hammy will accept the pup back.....

Anyhow, feel so proud, our first care together~

http://www.hamster-zone.com

Early again.....

After tiring week and weeks, finally it's weekend again.

Last night, I told myself to sleep well and hope I'll be able to wake up late the next day.

But, I woke up unusually early again today......sigh.......

I tried to sleep back but my mind already started to wonder here and there. No choice, I got up from bed and start doing some chores.

And now, I am here surfing and blogging one my unusual early morning again on weekend while many are still sound asleep....

Breakfast

Last night, I think over what to have for breakfast today and I thought of having "roti telur".

However, the traffic to work was so hectic and I have to give a miss for "roti telur".

Suddenly, someone suggested to have a packed breakfast to office and I find it is a great idea.

Nevermind that we don't get to have breakfast together to work but at least I have a packed breakfast before to work although is not "roti telur" but I'm glad.

Was glad that along the way, we get to share our first breakfast together at some place too :)

Besides from "roti telur" was our first breakfast I had before to work.

How could I ever forget about it.....

Thank you for the breakfast~

Sunshine

- Sunny Morning -

I was so motivated throughout yesterday but was down before I call it a day.

However, am glad we did manage to talk about it; although little but it is still better than not at all.

I was not so into waking up this morning, probably due to over exhausted from matters....

Off I drove to work in a not so good mood and arrive in office feeling so much wanted to go back home and sleep.

Not long later.....

A message received; a message from someone and immediately I felt sun shine upon me.

Thank you for shining my day ~

M motivated

- Raining Morning -

Brithday just passed.

Don't know why I somehow still feel in a low mode .... probably am still in exhausted mode after so many things happening to me.....

It is a cold Monday morning and makes it even more a Monday Blue.

However, I felt today will be a different Monday and yes, it is different.

As I saw a message left by someone and it makes me feel motivated.

The message reads out like this.....

....... New Day New Week New Start... for D-P ......

The message did keeps me motivated.

I do strongly feel so ~

~ the Pink & Green day ~

..... I wonder why my bag is unusually heavy??

It was heavier than last night ......

Yes, just my clothes and some make up stuff but ......

Until when I start unpacking my bag, I found this underneath some stuffs.....

Wonder what is inside & there is this .....

And inside it I have this.....

Am so glad it's from special someone :)

Such an unexepected & coincident gift ......

Unexpected to receive a gift,

Coincidently the gift colors match the shirt we are wearing.

And I called it the Pink & Green day ~

Realized ...

As I woke up this morning, I realized something......

I finally realized the dream I dreamt last week.

The dream about something I fear of always......

Some said a dreamer's dream foretells a dreamer's destiny.

Is this true? Is it not?

I don't really believe it until today I realize of my dream.

Should I accept it as true or not?

Or should I accept it until it really comes true?

Why does bad dreams often happened for real?

Why not sweet dreams so that everyone lives a sweet life?

Is this part of God's will?

Seeing His Creation going through ups & downs in life.....

I know..... this is part of His will.

A way to make His Creation learn & grow through the path He destined for His Creation~

I hope I can be strong & remain strong till the end.

Encouragement & support is what I really need to push it through this destiny.

The destiny which He created, the destiny I have chosen & started.

Since there is always a start, there should be a way to stop too.

I hope he will stand by me.....

Am sorry and thank you~

....caught in between....

So much looking forward for this weekend and at the same time so much hoping that still a long way to go before weekend....

Really don't know how.... so much caught in between.....

Should I wish for sooner weekend so that everything will is over soon?

Dilemma ....... always~

Not looking forward

For the very first time, I'm not looking forward for the weekend especially this coming weekend.

I wish the day is still far away......

OR

I wish the day had passed.....

Not sure if I'm able to stay strong till the day;

Not sure if I'm able to remain strong after the day.

Sometimes I strongly feel that taking the 'short cut' is the best way although others might be hurt most.

But, this is the only way everything will come to an end completely in me and one day others will be able to recover their feelings .....

Hello August~

Goodbye July & Hello August.....

Although it don't seems to end as I hoped for and having my pillow wet in the end throughout the final night of July but I'm still looking forward towards for a better August.

I did thought of many things, however, I will remain telling myself that in order to have a better August.... not only August but in many months to come, I shall not make myself keep thinking on things that may or may not happen now or in near future.

Why??

Well, just a way not to hurt myself for anything that don't go the way I've thought of.

......August...... here I am now......

July~August

Have I hoped too much?
Have I expect too much?
All I hope & expect is just end July well & welcome August with a big heart.
Am so looking forward that August shall be better than July but.....
I doubt on it.....

Feel so opposite than what I'm supposed to feel like when July ends....
Don't seems right however nothing seems wrong too....
Then what exactly happened??

And I don't know why, felt such a far distance between D-P tonight....
Really don't know why....
Felt left out & somehow did felt being ignored in a way.

I do understand completely of why certain things have to be in such way, but I guess I'm in the 'explode' stage.....
I truly understand and guess exhaust lead towards the 'explosion' without knowing the exact reason....

Just a simple hope....
hope for a better August ahead after returning from dreamland....