don't seems good.....

It's new year.....

I've wished it will be a better year & a new beginning but I don't know why, today is just the second and I feel the same as in 2009.

I've wished that everything will be left behind in 2009 & let me move forward to 2010 but it has been following me to new year.....

Will it be better soon? Will it?

How come I have to go go through the same situation again and again?

Is it that I don't deserve to have a better one just because I've done mistake for once?

If this is a so called punishment, I rather leave everything and be all by myself....

So exhausted from feelings..... maybe I will be better if I don't have feelings....