i don understan....y.....

yesterday was fine, everything goes on like normal day only that i have my 2 sis at home but without both my parents at home on saturday.

came to evening, am not feeling wel....so sudden, so i tot i better sleep early. my dear fren caled n we talke on the phone for almos 3 hrs. felt sleepy d, we say goodbye n hung up, then i fall asleep straight away....

then immediately, i'm in the other world, it's caled Celine's DREAM WORLD. it's somethings which will never happen again as it already the end since last 2 years.....i never felt so close and sad with him before after 2 years....

midnight only did i realiz tat it's jst a dream, whenever im awake i felt so tired n i jst wanted to close my eyes n then again it seems that i fell into dreamland again and the story just continue like a fairy tale..... for me it's a legend.

morning comes, i force myself to wake up, i can't go on dreaming anymore, i felt so tired, so tired. i wonder when can it end? as tis is not the first time happening, the same thing happened to me when i shared my memories with my dear friend one night and at the same night i had a dream, the same person but different story line.....

....pls wat should i do, i wish i could 'reformat' my memory....

....my self-esteem....

Las 2 days-Friday morning, as i'm stil asleep, i felt my phone in silent mode vibrating. i'm so asleep n didn't want to open my eyes, the call is left ignored.

It's time to wake up, i chek my phone, i saw my fren's name appeared. i return her call i guess and i heard her good news that she was invited for an interview. Congrats to ya buddy. she asked me to acompany her to the interview n since i'm so nothign to do i jst agreed.
..............then now myself, i was happy for her as she's a freshie & smart & a grad from Oz, it's a good start for her n it's a quick start for her too. As for me, i was rather sad of myself, i'm starting to feel lack of confidence in the working life now, n i seems to start returning my knowledge back to the books and to my lecturers........

My mentor seems to ask me to go for off-campus exam to refresh my knowledge again in order to gain my confidence to start my career in what i'm majoring, but i find it, it's not as easy as what he's suggesting.....

Hmm.....i wish luck is on my side soon, and i'm not way back behind than them....it's rather an embarassed thing to be in the group......