Not looking forward

For the very first time, I'm not looking forward for the weekend especially this coming weekend.

I wish the day is still far away......

OR

I wish the day had passed.....

Not sure if I'm able to stay strong till the day;

Not sure if I'm able to remain strong after the day.

Sometimes I strongly feel that taking the 'short cut' is the best way although others might be hurt most.

But, this is the only way everything will come to an end completely in me and one day others will be able to recover their feelings .....